I’m fortunate in that sometimes, the books that are piled so high on my desk avalanche and I find myself staring at the exact words I need to keep me going in that moment. Some people call it grace. I guess I’m grateful for grace.
I knew the moment I stumbled on Rumi’s quote about that place beyond right and wrong that my life would be different. I got goosebumps.
This quote touched my soul in such a way that I no longer needed to be “right” about anything. I have always craved harmony but attracted conflict. I needed to find a place – a sacred space – where interaction with others was based on this idea of non-judgment. Once I found that field described by Rumi, inside my own heart, all conversations became possible. Especially deep conversations. Deep conversations about motherhood, religion, life-death-rebirth … and I felt connected.
What should we talk about? I welcome the conversation.
As I said goodnight to my daughter tonight, her last words to me were “Dad, remember to err is human but to forgive is divine “. I know I have heard that many times before but I still seem to struggle to meet that lofty goal and be devine. On the other hand, I have no problem on the erring side. Making mistakes, especially the same mistakes, is something I unfortunately do all the time. So that makes me very human. Now I like to think that I am also very good at forgiving but I feel I often come up short in that department. I rarely bare grudges for a long time but , at the same time, I do not very often instantly forgive. I seem to go through this process of feeling hurt and taking on a victim syndrome which usually has the affect of making the other person feel bad. I suppose it’s like a passive retaliation. Instant forgiveness is a challenge but then who would expect being divine would be easy?
The Egyptian civilization dominated the Ancient World for almost 3,000 years and has no comparison to any civilizations that came before or after it in terms of longevity. We are still learning today just how this civilization was so sophisticated and advanced in areas from science and medicine to social and legal systems. The Ancient Egyptians worshipped many Gods and associated each of these Gods with different aspects of their lives and the world around them.
One that really stands out for me is the Goddess Ma’at (pronounced Mayet or Mayat) who represented order, truth and justice. The Pharaoh’s of the New Kingdom in particular were very expressive in their statues and tombs about ruling and living under the principles of Ma’at. They believed that if they did not, the world would return to chaos – its state before it came into existence. In order to maintain those principles of Ma’at, the Egyptians lived under a social and legal system that surpassed the Greeks, Romans and most other civilizations that came afterwards. Women had rights and could own property and divorce their husbands for just cause. Peasants and Nobles were regarded as equals under the law and all were entitled to a hearing to settle disputes. The principles of Ma’at were the cornerstone of Ancient Egyptian civilization and one of the reasons that it survived and flourished for so long. Today, it seems our current governments and leaders struggle to maintain order, truth and justice. Their principles appear to be associated more with wealth and power and, as a result, we are slipping towards chaos. In many parts of the world today, women have less rights than the Ancient Egyptians and there are few places where the poor and the rich are regarded as equals under the law.
The Goddess Ma’at is usually depicted with an ostrich feather in her hair. The Ancient Egyptians believed it was this feather of truth that a person’s heart was weighed against in the hall of judgment when they died. If the heart of the deceased was as light as the feather and not burdened with sin and evil their soul would pass into the afterlife but if the heart was heavier, their soul would be devoured.
It is interesting how you often hear people talking about having a heavy heart and we take that to mean they are sad or troubled while at the same time we associate light heartedness with happiness.